I cam back from the USA, immediately participated in the IELTS examination and studied the SAT course to apply for University scholarship in America. Honestly, I did everything at the same time in summer - only three months. If you have ever learned SAT, you may understand how crazy am I and you certainly guess the exact result. IELTS score is lower than my expectation and I did not take the SAT test, though I had finished the register form already.
I temporarily gave up American dream, I took part in all kinds of scholarship classes, found out more information about the scholarship of other countries including Australia, Canada, Germany, Holand, France, etc without any ASIA countries and Poland. Why? Because I was attracted by the Western human lifestyle - more comfortable than us. Also, no one encourages me to choose Poland as I have my relatives there. No mentors beside me, even my parents.
If it is not Poland, the only way for me to study oversea is scholarship.....
The big trouble is that I had to prepare for the high school graduation examination and I did not have too much time to balance those things by myself only. No advice, no friends, no guider so that I seem to fail into hopeless and depress. I had no answer to my future at that time. I did not know what should I do, I was so scared of people when they asked about my intention. At school, my teachers scolded me a lot as I had skipped class too many times, two or three days a week. There are some teachers, typically literature teacher hating me a lot who gave me the very low marks - 4.5/10. She tried to find out all the ways to decrease my score. Let me explain a little bit about this subject at my class for you to understand why no one could win the literature teacher. When a student got a low mark and they ask the teacher for reasons and mistakes, there are usually two options for them - one is keeping silent and accepting that score, second is receiving the lower one after listening to the explanation from her. It is so excessive and absurd! That's why I never had any chance to understand why my score is low like that. One day, she lost my test which was also another low mark and she gave me the reason was because of her baby. I was so naive to believe in that explanation. Beside her, my English teacher is not an exception, she always looked down on me and my ability, but she could not make me scared because my English at school is completely fine. Certainly, there are many teachers who understood my case. They knew that I would like to study oversea in the future and do believe in me. They never let my score is too bad although I did not study as hard as I did before.
Personally, grade-12 studying period was so stressful and memorable.
When I was so stressed because of teachers and my future, I seem to give up all for a while. I stopped studying scholarship by myself, I focused only on my graduation test at school. Unfortunately, in the darkest time, I found the light of hope. There is a stranger naturally coming to me, asking for my future plan. After those questions, she gave me some useful explanations about the scholarship of all famous countries around the world and asked me to choose after that. She was so surprised when I skipped Poland simply because of my relatives there. I was worried about my future that I could not become independent and mature.
"But you do not have time" - she said
And inside also told me that I had been so tired. I had also faced with acne too. Sometimes in that period, I would like to think of suicide. Finally, I decided to choose Poland and let my profile for a company specializing in studying abroad. The cost is quite expensive, I chose a public Economics school in Warsaw - the capital of Poland without any scholarship. I would go abroad and my parents have to pay for my studies. For the living fee, I have no need to worry due to my relatives there.
Although it costs, my choice is correct. I had more time to concentrate on studying at school, participating in the piano course, teaching English at the orphanage and English center. I had more time to follow something that makes me happier instead of being worry too much.
You may ask where is my parents?
I do not know whether this is the way that my parents educated me. They let me do whatever I want both good and bad things. They let me stand up by myself after a terrible storm. It seems like they let me completely decide how my future will be. Moreover, because both of them are labor workers, they so that do not have too many experiences in this field.
Why I did not choose University in Vietnam and get the scholarship after that?
Because studying abroad is my dream. If today I do not work for it, when will I start to do it? I believe that there are many opportunities else later. I owed my parents and I will find out the different ways to pay for them, it may be a job for example.
Finally, I chose Poland simply because Poland allows me to make my dream come true, let me out of being too stressful also. Sometimes, too much stress at the same time is not good for our health. Everything also has its own solution, I and you do not realize it may be because we do not think of it. If one day you are so stressful like me in the above situation and no one who you know couldn't help you, just meet a stranger! I promise that you will experience a fancy advice from them.
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