I am not a submissive discipline!

#confession

"My daughter is terrible, she is so lazy and does nothing all day" Have you ever heard any complaints like that before? That is everything my mom told people about me and I have to stand it for 18 years. My love reader! Maybe you are a boy or a girl, I hope that my confession is helpful to you.

Only me could understand myself most - source: pixabay

For the first time, I heard about swearing from my mom and dad. It was really scary. It could be seen as a kind of violence. At that time, I was a little girl. I forgot how old am I, but it influenced me a lot. After being familiar with it, I realized that people in conflict always thinking for themselves first, they even could not hear any explanations from others. I was certainly not an exception. My relatives said that my parents had been proud of me so much though they always complained about me. Unfortunately, I'd never heard any beautiful speeches about me from them. One quote is: "parents never say love to their kids, they just act". Do you believe in that? Of course, it may be true in some situations but not at all.

I used to try to make everyone around me satisfied by studying better, working harder or being a perfect girl until I reached puberty. There is a big change in my thought and action. Sometimes, I could not control myself anymore. I did differently with my parent's expectations. They told me to do housework but I sat inside my room, kept silent and practiced typing the computer. They prevented me from learning music and told me to focus only on studying, but I secretly found out work, earned money and paid for my piano course. One truth is that they have more practical experiences than me, but I wouldn't like to be their dream daughter who is too obedient and gaining good grades at school only. I knew what I really love and good at. Then, what I have kept doing until right now is doing whatever I desire. Sometimes, I had a chance to be friends online with people not only in Vietnam but also in the USA, Singapore, France, ASEAN countries, Russia, etc. Some people are as same as my parents but some are completely different. They encouraged everything I do. If they realize something wrong, they would give advice to me instead of countering me. Certainly, I am a person who understands myself most. The advice are the motivation for me to keep up the good work.

In the past, I had a lot of objectors and my parents are one of them. I don't know whether there is an increase in the number of those people, but I would like to not care about them. However, my biggest nerve is not uncertainty. It's a regretful feeling.

Honestly, my objectors are my toxic relationships and it sometimes is my family. What I choose is: "I still love them most and I remain to believe in myself most".

What I am doing is not to prove others wrong or right!